Having a blog for so long, it is kind of amazing to see how things have changed, with the design and mostly the entries. I went through where I would post anything and everything I could on my site, even things that were or should have been kept to myself. I have spilled my emotions over the web, with an intent to either get things off of my chest, keep record of what happened, or type a message for someone in hopes that they would read it.

I have also gone through a paranoid stage where I realized how much of my personality, and deep emotions were forever online, so freaked I changed my name in hope that would curb some of my paranoia. I also began hiding old blogs as they seemed irrelevant to the current time and current life (which is why anything before 3 years has almost disappeared.)

Truth is, life has been changing on me so much to where I can't keep hold of it. And I am not saying my external life, but I also mean myself, as I have noticed my personality, my goals, and my habits just changing drastically. In most part it is becoming harder and harder for me to post a real entry for this blog, mainly because I have nothing to say, or wish to say, at least for my personal blog. I believe it is just that, I could write down every moment, and mark every part of my life, but that brings me nothing. I would rather make new moments, and live life to the extent that I can, enjoying every moment, regardless of how negative it is.

I am not sure what happened a few weeks ago, why it all happened, but I did get fed up with it all. I guess I just finished recovering from opening myself up... to myself. I stopped holding myself back, stopped letting people hold me back, and stopped caring about things and people who are no longer in my life. I care only to move forward, and push forward as hard as I can, and not stop until i'm dead.

So it is kind of hard to say what I am going to do with this site. Though I might just keep it around and add entries when I feel like it. Or maybe I will just drop everything, who knows.

Only time will tell...